"The Last Hurrah"

I just found out some news that I thought would have destroyed me. And it didn't.

Seeing and feeling my reaction to it is an amazing experience. A few months ago, I would have been crying myself to sleep or not to sleep. It would have taken me forever to feel okay again. I am in a new place these days. This time, I feel fine.

The universe works in amazing ways. I will say that it always has my back. Everything works out in the best ways for me. Bad things happen, but they have incredible outcomes. INCREDIBLE. The past few months have been so rough, but I feel better than I ever have in my entire life. The things I have learned about myself and the person I have become because of this journey has changed me, and made my world a whole lot brighter.

I read a book once about getting yourself through a breakup called, The Breakup Bible. It always sounds so silly when I say it out loud. But anyways, in the book it talks about "the last hurrah". The last hurrah is a single incident that helps you see the light of day and finally lets you get over them. It happens when you're standing at the edge and the only thing between you and being over your ex is jumping. Then. The last hurrah comes. and you jump.
I had many moments that felt like this, but I could feel that they weren't it. THIS feels like my last hurrah. It was my final push and I couldn't be more grateful for it.

I thought she changed. That was an illusion, and my mind couldn't feel more clear right now. I am growing into a woman of high worth and I refuse to settle. Taking someone back that has done THIS many things to me makes the word "settling" a complete understatement.

My mind isn't on love. It's on myself. It's easy to feel like you'll never find someone to love as much as you love your ex. I know that couldn't be further from the truth, but I am at a place where I am actually okay with that if it means not being with someone who isn't honest or trustworthy. I am above that. And I can't wait to start and continue this new journey with myself.

Cheers to the universe. You always send me blessings.