Butterfly

Boy is life crazy. So much has happened in the last few months for me that some days I wonder how I am still breathing.
Because this time has passed, I can actually look back and see so much progress. I took steps back, but I am moving forward again. My ex recently moved out and I am learning what it's like to live alone. After our breakup, she left all the time and would be gone for days. It was rough, but I learned a lot about myself. The only difference now is this time, she's not coming home.

My life has changed a lot, but not as much as I have. When I think about how I used to view myself, I feel like I was just here. I didn't really have a view of myself and I had a very narrow idea of what I wanted for myself in my daily life. This significantly hindered my growth and I could not be more grateful to have the opportunity to be able to view myself.
My connection with my spirit has grown. My spiritual growth is on fire and I'm burning brighter everyday. I found a more healthy relationship with food, and realized that I had a poor relationship before. I rarely ate and I would just eat the easiest thing I could find. Now I eat all organic and prepare all of my meals. I feel better and the cooking burns some alone time for me. It becomes a nice date with myself that I look forward to.
I have finally created an awesome support group. I have the best friends now that are truly there for me. They are thoughtful and listen when I have a lot to say and they give me great insight to my situation and my feelings. They're so understanding and show me a good time when I need one. I couldn't ask for more.
With all of this extra alone time I have, I feel creative again. I make things. I sing and I am drawing again. I haven't drawn something in months. It is such a release for me. I am a creator. Just like my father. It's so therapeutic and makes me feel like me. I even have the urge to write more. My journal is almost full and I can't wait to start my new one.

This journey has become a positive one for me. I have even made a bucket list of things I want to experience right away. I have finally gone from a depressed and shooken woman to one full of joy and hope for the future. I still have a process ahead of me, but I have finally started blooming.