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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

My White Flag

Even though it is far over due, I am finally fed up. I have been heartbroken the past month and I am finally at a point where I want to put it all behind me.
I have talked for the past couple weeks about shifting my focus. I found that the statement is really easy to say. I am going to shift my focus. I quickly realized that it was much harder to do. It took me some time to figure out exactly how I was going to accomplish this courageous and beneficial task. I've always loved a plan, and now I have one.
I have learned over the past year working on self-development that everything begins with a decision, and you have to mean it. That is what I am making now. A decision to not just say or think about shifting my focus, but doing it. I need to use this new beginning to accomplish my dreams.
I refuse to rebound. It won't do a thing for me in the long-run, and definitely won't help me accomplish my dreams.
One thing I am grateful for is that I have not lost my confidence. I know my worth and I have never came out of a breakup chanting that, let me tell you. Breakups can make you feel knocked down and worthless. I did feel somewhat worthless to my ex, but only in her eyes. Not in my own. I know there is someone amazing out there for me. Someone spiritual, beautiful, loves to travel, full of culture and class. I can't wait to meet that woman.
So, here is my white flag. I am putting my hands up and moving on. I have done it a thousand times before. I will no longer stay in the same spot. I will keep my feet moving towards something much better than you. Which isn't a random person to distract me. It's myself. 
This hard time is my test and I plan to pass it with flying colors.

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