The Universe

It's been forever since I have written. Not trying to make excuses, but it's for some great reasons.

I got a new job that I LOVE and moved two hours away in my hometown. It sounds like a bittersweet fairytale, but boy am I blessed.

Last year was one of the worst years of my life. I endured brutal heartbreak, rejection, betrayal, abandonment and serious financial hardship. I wasn't sure why all of it was happening to me. In my opinion, I was a good person. I worked hard and did my best to make good decisions.
If I could go back, I wouldn't have taken even one terrible day.

I couldn't get out of bed and I shared some of my journey on my blog when I could bear to type the words of my reality. The first thing I reached for was a book. And then another. And then another. Those books saved my life, and they got me more than just out of that bed. They got me out of that life.

I journaled. Every night. It gave meaning to everyday and I could see my progress on paper. At the end of every page, I ended the entry with a positive thought. Most common sentence was "great things are coming." It didn't appear that way all the time, but I know blessings were around the corner. It was a reaaaalllyy wide corner, but it came.

I am strong. The strongest I have ever been. My mind is sharper and I am aware of every single move I make in life. I have become keenly aware of my actions and decisions. To be honest, I thought the person I am wouldn't come until my 30's. I have a lot of work to do, but I am happy with where I am.

In the past year, after each hardship, I changed a huge part of my life. Something incredible came of it.

My breakup ridded me of someone who didn't love me and didn't deserve me. She came back, but it was too late. I found my worth, and I no longer settle in life.

I conquered my driving anxiety, which was a five year battle.

I read 10 books last year that changed my life.

I developed a fantastic relationship with food and improved my health beyond what I ever imagined.

I found a huge passion for cooking.

I started my career and met some of the most beautiful people.

I paid off all of my interest-baring debt! (This is huge. I had A LOT. ha)

I make good decisions. Almost consistently. Even as small as not hitting snooze on my alarm in the mornings.

All I can say is I am just beyond blessed. I knew things would get better. They had to, but I had no idea the amount of blessing that would flood through just from me taking responsibility for my life and my pain. I demanded things turn around, and they more than did.

I couldn't be more blessed, and I am nowhere near where I want to be. I have so many dreams ahead of me.